i find it so hard to write in this blog, only because i cant organize my thoughts well enough to express them out loud. john kaplan said there is medicine for that, to help express my feelings more clearly without losing my train of though so fucking easily.

on a lighter note, life has been pretty good lately. idk why, im not going to say im necessarily happy, but im not so depressed as usual. i suspect its just a phase. ill be up and down for the rest of my life. as im typing this, i am realizing how fucking fast i can actually type :)

im not going to try to make my blog all fancy like vickys cuz thats just wayyyyyy too confusing.

earlier today my sisters boyfriend was here and he was talking about how he went over chris gills house and he was playing some hockey game with chris's brother, mike. i found that quite amusing. they used to be quite good friends actually back when chris and i were best friends as well.

i talked to amy last night. i guess were back together. that makes me feel extremely fulfulled. and btw STAND BY ME IS THE BEST MOVIE EVER MADE.

i leave you with this:
the lights of the bright ones shine tonight