i jsut dont care anymore. ive lost all motivation to do anything. the only things i really care about anymore is finding about private schools, my music, sometimes my dance, and thats about it. no one wants to help me. im scared to get a girlfriend or even like anyone because im afraid she'll just leave me in the end. i dont want to make new friends or even have the ones i have. i referred to them today as "acquaintances". theyll all betray me in the end. i really dont have any friends. im kind of a loser, but ive learned to live with loneliness. i hate more and more people every day. dani hates me now too. i really dont know what im doing here.